i've had something heavy on my mind for probably years now. as both a public figure and a consumer, i have experienced immense psychological pain as a result of being on the internet. and while it’s my job to post content on social media and the internet, as a consumer of the internet, i often feel like it causes more harm than good. and that can make me feel like a hypocrite. and i think this feeling of hypocrisy has led me to a lot of unforeseen challenges in this career that i wouldn't have expected.